I was 27 years old when I became pregnant with my son. I remembering feeling a wave of emotions , all the time and at the exact same time. I was nervous, excited and terrified. Growing up I always dreamed of becoming a mother. This was supposed to be exactly what I wanted...right? There’s a saying that you are never truly prepared for motherhood . In my case I found this to be true. One thing is for sure, I could never have prepared for my battle with postpartum depression.
Postpartum depression is defined as depression after childbirth. The common symptoms of postpartum depression are :
- Loss of appetite
- Mood swings
- Suicidal thoughts
Postpartum depression is responsible for turning what was supposed to be the happiest moment of my life into the darkest. I began to alienate myself from my family and friends. I felt un-accomplished, guilty and cried all the time.When my son was just three months old I contemplated suicide. I knew that I needed help but I was too ashamed to see a professional.
Postpartum depression is responsible for turning what was supposed to be the happiest moment of my life into the darkest.
So, how did I overcome postpartum depression?
I got myself into a routine of journaling , going to church (praying) and speaking to other mothers. I was amazed at how many women close to me had similar experiences. As a black mother it was important to me that I be perceived as “strong” and having it all together. I found my purpose in my depression. My purpose has become creating a safe space for women to identify and discuss their experience with postpartum depression.
There is no weakness found in seeking help.
I hope that by sharing my story a few things will happen: I want us to raise awareness of postpartum depression and break the stigma associated with it. I want to save the lives of mothers (and children) who can fall victim to suicidal thoughts/violence like I almost did and I also want to give you hope. There is no weakness found in seeking help. There are resources and programs that can help. You are not alone mama! I am living proof that there is life after postpartum depression.
About The Author:
Hi! My name is Passion King . I live in Long Beach , CA . I am a mother of a precocious and smart two year old little boy. I enjoy reading, writing and listening to music. You can connect with me on Instagram @PassionIKing or via email PassionIKing@Gmail.com